Random outburst!

This may not be the coolest way to start a blog but its cheaper than therapy so am gonna pour my heart out  so i can feel better.
Am at that confused stage in my life where everything seems to be heading an opposite direction even when I put all known efforts. I am a hair breath close to giving up!!  Argh!! its really frustrating!! This isn’t me at all!! I was so prepared,organized,planned every move and did I mention I am a go-getter. I can’t even place it!! wish I can point out where am wrong!! I can go on and on rambling and nagging cos its so sweet to dwell in self pity right now. Now I feel like the whole world should sympathize with me (but I know that would be my inverted pride talking). *sigh*

 Its up to me now to pick myself up, gosh!!I wish I was still a kid. But now giving up is not an option. I have got to slap myself and get my act Together and see what I can make out of this mess.
Although am crawling(that’s too fast sef), am moving like a snail right now. But I can’t afford to stop,just have to keep moving. I have got what it takes and nothing is impossible to accomplish because I believe and trust he is faithful to finish what he started. His word said he will not give me a problem that i can’t handle. Which means that I can overcome this if I can just figured out how!. I know there is a way out because he couldn’t have brought me this far to abandon me because he loves me. His love is not like the worldly love that is filled with selfish needs. His love for me is pure and true. My Lord God that sustained me even in the tightest situations is still looking down on me now with a smile that means “he has paved a way for me”. Lord I don’t understand what is going on right now, I don’t even need to but I just want you to take control.

“I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say, Amen and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain, “I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls I raise my hands
And praise the God who gives and takes away

And I’ll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands
For You are who You are no matter where I am
And every tear I’ve cried You hold in Your hand
You never left my side and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry, You raised me up again
But my strength is almost gone
How can I carry on if I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain, “I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls I raise my hands
And praise the God who gives and takes away

And I’ll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands
For You are who You are no matter where I am
And every tear I’ve cried You hold in Your hand
You never left my side and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

And I’ll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands
For You are who You are no matter where I am
And every tear I’ve cried You hold in Your hand
You never left my side and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm”

Praise you in the storm by Casting crowns.

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4 thoughts on “Random outburst!

  1. BABE, I FEEL WHAT U FEEL RYT NOW COS I'V BEN DEAR B4, SEVERALLY. DON'T WORRY, GOD IS STILL IN D BIZ OF WAY-MAKING. HE'L SURELY COME THROUGH & MAKE IT HAPPEN 4U. BUT DAT GLOOMY FACE U'R PUTTING UP IN DAT PIC IS A DISSERVICE 2D RADIANT BEAUTY I'V ALWAYS ADMIRED FROM AFAR. CUD U PLS DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT? A LITTLE SMILE WON'T BE A BAD IDEA; EVEN IF U HAVE 2FAKE IT, @LEAST. LOL…

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  2. Yes according to the other person, i agree with the person about your face, even though you write such a wonderful poem, you do not look it. You look like there is something broken inside of you that needs fixing, but i am happy that half of you knows the Lord and i am not sure what the other part of you is. Please if it is possible could you change the picture and use a picture that will portray who you are in the Lord and the content of your heart. Otherwise keep writing your beautiful poem and keep living a lifestyle of Jesus Christ. May God bless you and give you more inspiration, In Jesus name, amen.

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  3. amen!! i wish i knew who you guys were. i would have reached out and hugged u so tight till i crush ur ribs(joking). i also wish i could fake a smile but in my GOD i would trust for now.

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  4. My dear, you are a star and I thank God for your life and talent. Hallelujah! However please permit me to make some suggestions—–I strongly feel you should change this picture because it does not show who you are on the inside. Even though it is only God that knows who we really are, but sometimes our actions can betray us and be misinterpreted. I think as a child of God they are somethings you should only communicate with God about and not say in public because it is only God that knows who you are and your thoughts, otherwise others will tend to judge you. You sound like a young beautiful talented girl, but the picture does not show, therefore allow your inner God given beauty and talent to come out so as to glorify God , remember you are the light of the world so what you say, how you look and do should glorify your God in heaven. Try to be an example to others. For He will perfect that which concerns you in due time. In Jesus name, amen. Matthew 5: 14Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

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